I was going to go into a long thingy about my Foodal Religion, but I think
it’s best if I stick to the basics on this one. :)
- Audio field recordist and engineer
- Kinky dominant top
My other diverse features also include:
- Audio Vibrationism
I’m a MAMPKTW JAVAFP-ist
- (no matter how I tried, I just couldn’t make any catchy acronyms from that stuff)
Or at least, the ones I’ve told, which is mostly everybody.
And the ones who have guessed.
And their friends.
And possibly their hamsters as well.
There is a pro dom in England called Mistress Lubyanka. She and I are separate, unrelated, and entirely different people.
I’d like to present you with two personal features which I’ve often seen people confuse.
- In general, pro doms are sex workers who provide erotic dominance for a fee.
- I enjoy kinky dominant topping only with partners who actively prefer to yield to my authority specifically within the ongoing romantic social relationships we share.
Whilst these two features can and often do co-exist within the same person, the features themselves are entirely separate and different from each other. Of these two traits, the only one which describes me accurately is the second one.
I enjoy lots of sensory things, which includes being fooded a lot. I live near quite a few scrummy eateries, in which I stuff my face on a regular basis. Yum. :)
What with this being my foodal life and foodal domain and all, I refer to my live-in partner as my serf, because I am his Foodal Lady. He also knows me variously as
- - Her Tuna Sandwichness
- Keeper of the Holy Pits
My serf is very precious to me. I refer to him in this blog as ‘kvetch’ because he kvetches the best of any non Jewish person I know. And I don’t care how much he kvetches as long as he still makes with the bringage and the fetch-and-carry-age, and the to-and-fro-age. Which he does. :)
I asked kvetch to create a blog to describe his experiences of being owned by me. He did, but he almost never posts in it, unfortunately.
But anyhow, as a mark of support and solidarity, I thought it would be a good idea to start my own blog, which might be useful for him and fun for me. (this was before I knew that he’d hardly ever post in his) As it turned out, this blog ended up being a great platform for my own self-expression, and kvetch updates his maybe once every three years or so. Oh well.
Isn’t it funny how things sometimes turn out in unexpected ways? :)
Most of the people I encounter (including the kinky ones) tend to associate kink with itemised lists of physical activities and their related accessories. And most kink-centric conversation, education, writing, imagery, film and other media tends to focus on these activities and their accessories.
Those activities and their related accessories represent only a minor, peripheral, tiny segment of my focus.
I’m millions more interested in the brain-centric psychological mechanisms of kink. I enjoy exploring my own and my partners’ responses and motivations and thinking patterns, and I enjoy pushing those explorations outside the strict bounds of comfort. I find that useful self-awareness functions and grows loads better that way.
I think about those explorations of the function and growth of self-awareness as ‘re-education’ and ‘behaviour modification’. And I chose my nickname to reflect my interest in those things, because when I think of them they remind me of the Lubyanka Prison. (more on this below)
As of October 2008, I qualified as a certified and licensed NLP Practitioner. Currently I am continuing my studies in that area, as well as a more in-depth look at Ericksonian hypnosis. I have been successfully exploring hypnosis with kvetch for quite some time now. It’s an experience he is growing to enjoy more and more. Conducting hypnotic sessions is a very intense, yet tranquil experience for me too.
Without the kind help and advice from Lady Julia and her yahoo group, I would have had a lot more trouble getting started with these topics. I have her to thank for my being able to make so much progress in such a relatively short space of time.
Hypnosis and NLP have added a truly riveting twist to pre-existing facets of my personality. I’m in an exciting stage of learning and personal development, which I am enjoying tremendously.
Whomever said “Life begins at 40″ really knew what the fuck they were talking about! :)
The Lubyanka Prison is well known as a venue for human rights abuses, which for a long time were euphemistically referred to as “re-education” and “behaviour modification”..
Just to be absolutely clear -
- I regard all human rights abuses, including those perpetrated by the KGB and others in and around the Lubyanka Prison, as completely unacceptable and horrific crimes.
Sometimes, unfortunately, some, um, individuals, tend to make wildly unfavourable and totally uninformed erroneous assumptions about my choice of nickname and what they think it means.
They could just ask, y’know. Many don’t, but they could ask. So this section is for them.
Human rights abusers don’t have any kind of ownership over the terms ‘re-education’ or ‘behaviour modification’. Human rights abusers just made them famous as euphemisms. The terms ‘re-education‘ and ‘behaviour modification’ have been used to euphemise human rights abuses and to abdicate responsibility for perpetrating them.
Contrarywise, I personally am using these terms literally to describe methods of achieving goals we all want.
As a kinky top, my interests in re-education are about increasing my own and my romantic social partners’ awareness of previously unconsidered attitudes and behaviour patterns which consistently led to undesirable or unpleasant outcomes, and my interests in behaviour modification are about changing those attitudes and behaviours to ones which can lead to outcomes which benefit all of us.
I have had very helpful, healthful, and incredibly positive results from consensually using the approaches I have adopted with my romantic social partners and friends. Those were what I had in mind when I was choosing my nickname. Although it wasn’t the only nickname I considered, it was the one which stuck. And now that I’m known by it, I’m loathe to change it.
So whether you feel offended by my use of the terms ‘re-education’ or ‘behaviour modification’, or whether you feel offended by my use of the nickname ‘Lubyanka’, it’s a nickname which works for me and my romantic social partners, and by using it I have only the kindest and most helpful sentiments in mind.
There. I hope that cleared that up.
More people have read and are reading this blog than I would have possibly imagined.
As of 3 August 2011, this blog has had 519,553 pageloads since April 2007!
I had absolutely no idea that my neurotic ranting would be so popular.
Who knew, eh?
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